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Friday, August 31, 2012

http://www.dissociative-identity-disorder.org/


  • Case studies report that most cases of DID resolve with proper therapy. Untreated, DID is chronic and recurrent with symptoms varying over time.
  • Psychotherapy for adults usually takes years depending on the patients goal.
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  • "This review examines empirical reports of treatment for Dissociative Disorders (DD), including 16 DD treatment outcome studies and 4 case studies that used standardized measures. Collectively, these reports suggest that treatment for DD is associated with decreased symptoms of dissociation, depression, posttraumatic stress disorder, distress, and suicidality." [42]

  • The newest diagnostic criteria are those for the proposed DSM-5 include the following plus there will be specifiers for "prominent non-epileptic seizures  (pseudoseizures) and/or other sensory-motor (functional neurologic) symptoms. "prominent non-epileptic seizures (PINES or pseudoseizures) and/or other sensory-motor (functional neurologic) symptoms. psychogenic non epileptic seizures (PNES). "DEFINITION AND EPIDEMIOLOGY: PNES are, as altered movement, sensation or experience, similar to epilepsy, but caused by a psychological process." [20]

  • "...alternate identities result from the inability of many traumatized children to develop a unified sense of self that is maintained across various behavioral states, particularly if the traumatic exposure first occurs before the age of 5. These difficulties often occur in the context of relational or attachment disruption that may precede and set the stage for abuse and the development of dissociative coping."
  • "Severe and prolonged traumatic experiences can lead to the development of discrete, personified behavioral states (i.e., rudimentary alternate identities) in the child, which has the effect of encapsulating intolerable traumatic memories, affects, sensations, beliefs, or behaviors and mitigating their effects on the child’s overall development.
  • ...posits that the development of DID requires the presence of four factors: (a) the capacity for dissociation; (b) experiences that overwhelm the child’s nondissociative coping capacity; (c)secondary structuring of DID alternate identities with individualized characteristics such as names, ages, genders; and (d) a lack of soothing and restorative experiences, which renders the child isolated or abandoned and needing to find his or her own ways of moderating distress.
  • The secondary structuring of the alternate identities may differ widely from patient to patient. Factors that may foster the development of highly elaborate systems of identities are multiple traumas, multiple perpetrators, significant narcissistic investment in the nature and attributes of the alternate identities, high levels of creativity and intelligence, and extreme withdrawal into fantasy, among others." [55]
  • "In short, these developmental models posit that DID does not arise from a previously mature, unified mind or “core personality” that becomes shattered or fractured. Rather, DID results from a failure of normal developmental integration caused by overwhelming experiences and disturbed caregiver–child interactions (including neglect and the failure to respond) during critical early developmental periods. This, in turn, leads some traumatized children to develop relatively discrete, personified behavioral states that ultimately evolve into the DID alternate identities. [55]

  • For this linking to occur, someone, usually a caregiver, must respond to the child in such a way that the child begins to create an internal singular representation of themselves and an adult provides a secure base for that child to live and explore, where if distressed they can return to the safe haven provided by their trusted caregiver. Severe and ongoing trauma and neglect by caregivers, starting early in childhood and consistently repeated throughout other important developmental periods of early life inhibit achievement of normal integration. [4]

  • The various dissociated parts of a system, other than the host will usually have their own history, self image and usually have their own name. In addition these alters usually have amnesia between them. During therapy dissociative boundaries (amnesic boundaries) are broken down and sharing and awareness takes place between the alters - including co-consciousness, a feeling of being in 2 minds at once.
  • The identity of each part created in childhood was influenced by their relationship with the original abuser(s). Twin parts might be seen as good and evil. Deformities and handicaps can be perceived such as a mute alter might represent how telling of the childhood abuse is forbidden. [4] (p.61)
  • There can be more than one ISH, but this is mostly found in larger systems. ISH's will often describe themselves as not having a body, unlike all the other alters. They might appear savant like, but they can only answer the best they can, just like every other personality state.

  • The most common alters in Dissociative Identity Disorder personality systems include: hosts, children, abusers, protectors, differently gendered, animals, managers, inner-self helpers, parts that wish for or inflict self harm including suicide, and alters that are thought to be dead. "Dead alters" are interesting since alters cannot be killed. These personality states are instead strongly dissociated from consciousness, so that their abuser(s) cannot find them. Any of these alter types, including the "host alters," will experience major deficits in self-awareness and functioning. The function of any alter is to attempt to address a system need; they do not choose their function. [53]
  • Two personality states, dissociated or not, cannot actually be present at the same time, but they can and do rapidly switch, appearing and feeling as if two or more are "out" at the same time. The event is called co-consciousness, co-awareness, co-hosting or co-presence depending on what exactly is going on. Those with DID tend to switch when there is a "perceived psychosocial threat. This switching allows a distressed alter to retreat while an alter who is more competent to handle the situation emerges". [58]

  • "During infancy, behavior is organized as a set of discrete behavioral states, such as states of sleep and waking, eating, elimination, and so on. If an infant/toddler is appropriately cared for, then these "behavioral states become linked over time and grouped together in sequences," [4] until a unitary personality sense emerges that can switch from one task-focused mental state to another, dependent upon need. As a child's brain develops, various personality states come to share a sense of having a common identity, while retaining the ability to switch from one personality state to another. [4] In a landmark study, C. Ross and L. Ness "conclude that symptom patterns in Dissociative Identity Disorder are typical of the normal human response to severe, chronic childhood trauma and have ecological validity for the human race in general." [62]
  • Common types of alters include: hosts, child parts, inner-self helpers, introjects, protectors, managers, suicidal states, twins, otherkin, dead alters, persecutors, gatekeepers and care-takers.  Each part in the system has a job that they perform - a needed job rather than a preferred job.
  • The proposed edition of the DSM-5 will emphasize fragmentation of identity, memory, and consciousness and at the same time add the "disruptive effect of symptoms on consciousness and a broader definition of symptoms." [19]
    • Disruption of identity characterized by two or more distinct personality states (one of course can be the host, since this is also a dissociated state) or an experience of possession, as evidenced by discontinuities in sense of self, cognition, behavior, affect, perceptions, and/or memories. This disruption may be observed by others, or reported by the patient.
    • Inability to recall important personal information, for everyday events or traumatic events, that is inconsistent with ordinary forgetfulness.
    • Causes clinically significant distress and impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.
    • The disturbance is not a normal part of a broadly accepted cultural, religious practice, or part of the normal fantasy play of children.
    • The disturbance is not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., blackouts or chaotic behavior during alcohol intoxication) or a general medical condition (e.g., complex partial seizures). [54]
  • The study reports that the description in the DSM is "deficient because it omits most of the dissociative phenomena of Dissociative Identity Disorder and focuses solely on alter personalities."
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  • News Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)/Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) - #1
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      As a person with multiple personality disorder, we suggest some people in the general public are creating mythological news stories about Multiplicity which we'd like to "call-out," or bust! [pants on fire!!!] (Annotated from Google Search)

  • One of the most contentious and provocative mental health issues is that of multiple personality disorder.  As I ponder the changing understanding of what a human identity is -- moving from the “animal plus soul” unified being to an “emergent process produced by interacting sub-systems” (which probably makes no sense to anyone who hasn’t been reading the research and which is only a provisional hypothesis anyway) -- the implications spread out in circles like ripples in a pond where a stone has been thrown.
  • On “Oz” (“Is that woman NEVER going to leave that series alone???”) the man retarded by trauma to his brain was given a sock puppet by Sister Pete to help with two things:  his difficulty in understanding what was happening to him and his loneliness.  He talked to it and it talked to others on his behalf.  It was truly just a sock with two button eyes, but it even said things that the guy with his arm up its “butt” couldn’t or wouldn’t be well-advised to say.  It had a separate personality.  This is the basic model for “multiple personality disorder.”  
  • From a theory standpoint, the idea is that children who are traumatized will create a dissociated, distant and protected identity that can “leave” until the pain and damage is over.  If authorities discover a child has this kind of internal identity, it can point at an abuser, usually a family member.  Secrecy is a high and enforced priority. It is related to the idea that parents “own” children and can use them as they please.  Abusers will make a big fuss over the American right to raise one’s own children in one’s own way.  Interference will cause explosive resistance.
  • There has never been a time when ordinary people have been exposed to so many shifting, vivid, seductive, admired personalities as we are today.  We see actors in many roles -- an ability that is praised -- we see them age over their lifetimes.  We hear different languages.   The Walmart homogeneity that seems to dominate us is in fact often scattered by other sources.  Some of the roles we take on exist in dream worlds, but still influence our political beliefs.
  • Going back, I just read “I Am More than One” by Jane Wegscheider Hyman  who has also written “Women Living with Self-Injury.”  This is a genre of self-help book not unlike Nancy Friday’s compilations of sexual experiences.  On the one hand, people (esp. women) read them to figure themselves out for purposes of self-improvement, but on the other hand they provide scripts for the inner puppet-shows that go on in everyone, though not usually as vividly as multiple personality:  more like debating whether to buy something or accept a new job.  I suppose some of this gets displaced to social networking on the Internet now, which explains a lot.
  • But if you are in modern society with many reasons to understand multiplicities of people and their conditions, it makes a lot more sense to try to find out what it’s all about and how it works.  Not that you have to go around hugging sociopaths and lepers.  And yet we stimatize (with bad and unconfirmed criteria), isolate, and let die millions of people (including children and babies) who have something like HIV-AIDS or mental illness, as though we had no other choice.   True enough, some are found, treated and kept alive.  The fact that we CAN makes it worse when we DON’T.

  • it’s been becoming more and more apparent to me that integrating at least some of my system will be better for me. i dont think i could ever integrate everyone and maybe not even that many of them but there are at least 31 people between three systems currently and it’s getting very hard to deal with now so i’d like to make a change and the only way i can see of getting things under control and less hectic is to find a way to integrate some of them.
  • i might write out a list of everyone i know of in the systems and then i can write beside them whether i think they should stay or whether i’d like to see if integration will work out for them.
  • i’d always been very much against the idea of integration and even the word used to make me feel angry and i think it might have stayed that way if i hadnt found more people in the systems. there have been around 13 more people or more that were found since i last felt like that. it makes me very sad to want some of them to integrate because they’ve always done so much for me, but i cant cope with this many and some of them arent nice at all and are unlikely to change.
  • i dont know how integration works though, i dont know how it will happen or the method to it. is there anyone who has experienced integration who can help me?

  • The Knight of Alabaster: Once upon a time there lived a young man. A young man named Akira, who has lived his eighteen years of life like a normal high school student… well, up until he meets Alice, a rather strange girl with severe Dissociative Identity Disorder, or better known as Multiple Personality. Meeting her he realises the world is not as it seems… and with her help he discovers there is a war between two countries; Emboria and Alabaster. It seems that Akira isn’t exactly from a normal family.
  • Problematic Marriage: To end a feud a promise was made between two families. A promise that will change the lives of two Korean children. One, a girl; stubborn, irritating and strong willed. The other, a boy; calm, collected and arrogant. The girl who's a shut-in and the boy who's ready to control one of the largest businesses in Korea. The promise is that the two must marry. What is the fate of these two OPPOSITE couple?!

  • I am calling you out Kevin Annett! And you too Jeremiah Jourdain. You are both one and the same person. I have evidence.
  • The gig is up Kevin, how about you admit to your fraud and we won’t keep hounding the cops to bust you and doing the investigating for them. As well, Alex Hunter, since you hang with Kevin Annett so much how about you share with us your experience meeting Jeremiah (since he has lived with Kevin for years!) and share with us a photograph, audio recording or some kind of proof this man exists — you can’t, because he doesn’t, and I DO NOT GET why you would continue to support this fraud considering you won’t be-able to do this. Not even for yourself so you know for sure or not if you are supporting the right guy.

  • One boy suffers from MCPD, a disorder which allows him to become many celebrities. Will he be cured, or be lost in his imagination forever? *Dylan James Short # 1 with Tyler Stoker

  • kay, so I’m a bit of a Michelle Nijhuis fan, but once again, she’s got her finger on the pulse of a critical debate, and also correctly notes that the pristine nature vs. managed natural systems argument is a bit of a false dichotomy:http://www.lastwordonnothing.com/2012/08/23/how-to-annoy-e-o-wilson/ It seems to me and an informal group of Facebook friends with whom I’ve been discussing this that how you fall with regard to how and why to practice conservation—as a pragmatist, an idealist, an optimist, or a “the whole things already gone to hell anyway, so I’m just going bowling” pessimist—depends on the day of the week, your mood, what the latest presidential poll numbers say, etc. Some have characterized this debate as E.O. Wilson vs. Emma Marris, or, as I did in a recent post on conservation triage, Pimm vs. Possingham, but the truth is that I’ve seen Stuart Pimm and E.O. Wilson act very pragmatically and I know that Hugh Possingham and Emma Marris have a healthy dose of the same “biophilia” that drives Wilson, and the righteous indignation at what we’re doing to the planet that gets Stuart Pimm all blustery. So, are you an idealist or a pragmatist? Yes. An optimist or a pessimist? Yes. I think we need it all.

  • Meadowbrook of Dorset is a place with multiple personality disorder.
    When you’re in the merchandising business, that’s a wonderful thing.
    There’s something for everyone.
  • “They love the camaraderie of the merchants, the one-for-all, all for-one spirit.
    “One business is as important as the next,” Julie said. “It adds to the ambiance.”

  • most of us keyboard sleuths said this many years ago, i sure did, especially after her break down and when i watched this video of her alter switch
  • wow wtf, irreparable harm immediate danger wtf really ? someone is really trying to keep the info in these files secret, obviously the files document her mind control, mpd, and abuse. spears just might be the one slave that will crack open this pandoras box of hellish demonic black magic mind control that has been perpetrated on humanity by inner dimensional demons and reptilians, this is bananas
  • is that a threat to the brit bot or a warning of her suicide mind control programming being triggered ?
  • I feel she has been messed up by dating prince william. after this she shaved her head, took loads of drugs, and went insane for several months. PW fucked up her energy field.

  • I am working on a website about DID. It still needs a bunch of work and I would love it if those of you here took a look at it and gave mesuggestions and made sure all my info is correct. I have not done any proofreading yet, it is just a rough draft, but I should have that done by the end of the week. Then I will add several more pages that I am working on but do not have online. There will be a DID expert reviewing it all as soon as I am done with the grunt work.<!-- m -->http://www.dissociative-identity-disorder.org/
  • Very interesting site! Thank you for sharing your great work
  • I'm impressed. ^^ It's looking really good. The only problem I noticed is that you list caretakers twice when listing the types of alters that commonly appear. Otherwise, it's looking perfect.
  • thanks! Will fix that!
  • Tylas, you have done an amazing job creating this site and organizing complex information into ways easier for everyone to understand. I greatly admire you and how much you have accomplished, especially how much you have done to help increase the awareness of DID. Thank you so much for all your effort and hard work; they are very much appreciated. You are a fantastic role model, a great inspiration, and I congratulate you on all your progress. Thank you for sharing your site here. I quite enjoyed reading it.

  • “Sometimes we all aren’t able to communicate well. Or what we’re going through. We all have problems that we can overcome with the right resources. I’m happy to see that [the Naval Hospital] is proactive in offering many different treatment options. It’s been needed for a long time.” - Herschel Walker
  • Naval Hospital Camp Lejeune‘s Department of Mental Health teamed up with former NFL superstar, Olympian and mixed martial artist Herschel Walker to campaign against the stigma surrounding mental health.
  • Shortly after he retired from his pro-football career, he was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder (DID), formerly known as multiple personalities disorder. In a speech given to patients, visitors, Marines, Sailors, and staff members, Walker noted that it wasn’t until after he recognized a pattern of violent and angry behavior starting when he was young, that he needed to seek help.
  • “But even after I got to my first group session,” he said. “I was like – ‘these people are crazy!’ I lied to the group for about four days before I accepted help…Being honest and getting help was the best thing I ever did.”
  • More than 50,000 of Naval Hospital’s 120,000 patients are active duty Marines and Sailors – many whom have deployed to combat environments multiple times and have an increased chance of suffering from post-traumatic stress or experiencing trauma. The Department of Mental Health staff members make it common place to consistently reevaluate treatment options and whether or not the team is effectively reaching the patient populations and meeting their needs.
  • “We are glad that our Marines and Sailors had an opportunity to hear an Olympic competitor and professional athlete reemphasize that it’sOK to ask for help,” said NHCL’s Department of Mental Health Director Cmdr. Sawsan Ghurani, board certified psychiatrist. “And not only that it’s OK to ask, but there are many others in their shoes. And with help, they’ve recovered and become well again.”

  • Multiple personality disorder
  • Yes I suffer this, and I post here because my other personality is ¿Transexual? I can't get it out of my head ... So I gave up ...
  • I decided to take hormones for her but I dont like be a girl I think maybe I will get used
  • What shoud I do? She said to all my family she is Trans for long time... So... I don't want them think im crazy (but yes, I know Im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo crazy)
  • Ok yes i remember that other person but they have been long gone after i got rid of that nasty male sex drive.. yeppers that was a true emotional rollercoaster.. yikes...

  • There are cases where some of the personalities may be aware of the others but, as a general rule, persons with Dissociative Identity Disorder (the clinical name for MPD) aren't aware of the different personalities within their psyche. Similarly, they are often not aware of what they are doing when the different personalities are controlling their actions, which can often be very frightening!
  • Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) is often associated with history of severe childhood trauma or abuse -- usually happening over an extended period. This could be physical, emotional, sexual, or some combination. The dissociative aspect is a coping mechanism -- the person unconsciously dissociates himself/herself from experiences or situations that are too painful to consciously assimilate.
  • With Psychodynamic Psychotherapy, Cognitive reality-based approach, hypnotherapy, and medications for symptomatic Tx if mood changes or psychotic or anxious.
  • Dissociative Identity Disorder is extraordinarily rare and typically associated with severe trauma in early childhood which results in a fractioning of the personality. Symptoms would include drastically different personality types (observed by others) and lost periods of time while one personality is functioning typically the other(s) are dormant, lapses in attention and focus
  • To be confident that you know what your diagnosis is (if you have one) it's best to be seen by a psychiatrist or psychologist. They can perform an evaluation of your symptoms and overall functioning. Multiple Personality Disorder (now called Dissociative Identity Disorder) occurs at a rate of .01% to 1% of the general population.

  • Domesticity would define her movie career, but before she was straitjacketed in apron strings she sunk her teeth into one of the stranger MGM releases of the 1940s, a psychological thriller about dual personality that wears several faces: It's a "woman's picture," a film noir, a courtroom drama and even a horror movie.
  • Anticipating "The Three Faces of Eve," the hit 1957 film that "popularized" multiple personality disorder, "Bewitched" (1945) was Thaxter's second movie, and a rare starring role; she'd never have another lead part as complex or unusual. Few actresses would:"Bewitched" allows Thaxter to stab a man with scissors, to twist her face with demonic lust, and to run through dark backlot streets in a vain attempt to outrace the chant in her head: "Crazy... crazy... crazy..."
  • Based on Oboler's original radio drama, "Alter Ego" (Bette Davis was the star of the broadcast, in a sort of premonition of the "horror hag" roles that would revive her career), the low-budget "Bewitched" opens with a nighttime image of a tower clock, its tick tick tickaccompanied by the voice of an omniscient narrator with a message that has lost none of its validity. "The world suddenly has become as small as the house we live in," the voice says, "and each person in this house is one of us." The narrator -- Oboler? God? -- reiterates this theme at the end of the film: "In a war-torn world, (one woman's) happiness may seem of small importance, and yet it is of importance, for each person in this world is one of us."
  • We soon learn that Joan's name was not chosen by Oboler at random: Like Joan of Arc, Joan Ellis hears a voice inside her head, but this voice seems more demonic than divine. The soundtrack, too, echoes with disembodied voices, as Joan's story is told in flashback by various narrators, including an unseen newspaper reporter and a sympathetic psychologist (Edmund Gwenn), working against the clock to win her a stay of execution.
  • (Sex also rears its head when Joan is all but propositioned on the street by a sleazy masher.) It's this arousal that awakens the feral, apparently sexually hungry Karen, leading to tragedy -- and the movie's rather dull final act, which is nonetheless fascinating for its dated theorizing and surprisingly forgiving attitude toward Joan's crime.
  • Joan, the psychologist asserts, was born with a second personality, and this unhealthy personality must be eliminated, the way a doctor might amputate a sixth toe.

  • VMware (NYS: VMW) has developed a touch of multiple personality disorder this week. Is it a sickness or a shrewd business move? Let's figure it out together.
  • Meet the voices in my headThe virtual computing giant's main persona marches on as always. At this week's VMworld conference, the company introduced a new "cloud-in-a-box" vision. Stacking VMware's virtual machine software together with recently acquired networking assets from Nicira and EMC (NYS: EMC) storage hardware, VMware will sell turnkey solutions for scalable cloud computing.
  • That's a direct stab at Amazon.com (NAS: AMZN) and Rackspace Holding (NYS: RAX) , which are the leaders in public cloud solutions today
  • "We won't be the only purveyors of cloud-in-a-box either," he said. "Microsoft will do it; so will OpenStack. We will work across a multicloud world."
  • And that brings us straight to the second head on VMware's shoulders -- the one that's joining Rackspace's OpenStack platform as a Gold member. That's an elite group of up to 24 entities (currently 12) that helps steer the OpenStack cloud computing project, just below the ultra-exclusive eight-member Platinum cabal at the top. Alongside VMware, microchip guru Intel (NAS: INTC) and Japanese electronics veteran NEC also filed applications for membership, to be voted on at Tueday's board meeting.

  • I have 5 alters that I know of. There's one in particular that is stronger and tends to take over more than the others.
  • By boyfriend says that when he proposes to me he will also propose to her too. 2 rings and all. I guess I'm wondering if I'm wrong for wanting this? I know this is something I'll have to deal with for the rest of my life so I feel like I shouldn't let her existence be miserable.

  • The last 30 years of T has kept me in poverty for the most part so this is a refreshing change. HOWEVER, during my 'silent sessions', my T insists on charging me bc he, as a Christian man, does not feel right billing my insurances if I refuse to cooperate, so, I get charged $140.00 each session (at least this is a discounted rate) that 'The Silent One' attends session instead of me or others who will actually participate
  • Excuse me...is 'The Silent One' not a part as well? Is it not my T's job/responsibility to find a way to reach that part as he would any other part? Granted, it may be more difficult but it is a 'part' & out of my control as are the others at this point in my recovery.

  • MULTIPLE Personality Disorder is something local artist Helen Child is probably often associated with, but with less of the medication needing and more of the costume change variety.
  • In her stage show Pirates and Sex Dolls in Outer Space, Helen deftly switches between four flamboyant characters, conjured up from a lifetime of traversing the ether of comic poetry, stage and visual art.
  • Part of the Wild West Comedy Festival, Helen is spruiking the performance as being “a mad adventure in the sixth dementia,” - an absurd romp through outer space running over two acts.

  • Well, I say 'internal', it was actually writing. I've been feeling a lot of sadness, anxiety and just generally unsettled feelings from child 'parts' for the last few days. I really haven't got a handle on the 'littles' yet; who they are, how many, what ages or anything. There are only one or two I'm sure of, but it feels as though there are a lot more.
  • I have two 'characters' in my head I've known about since childhood and recently wondered if they could be 'alters'.
  • I only have a certain amount of influence over what she does in the story, she's very autonomous.
  • I asked who she is and she said 'You. Your compassion.' It was pretty cool. So, I'm not sure what you'd call her, but has anyone else got a 'part' like this?

  • (Original Air Date: 05/10/12) Tracy is a married mother of four who says her life was forever changed the day she was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, more commonly known as multiple personality disorder. She says she has five personalities, or “alters”:
  • Is Tracy’s diagnosis real? Then, in a Dr. Phil first, Tracy transitions between her alters onstage. Speaking as Becky and Susie, can Dr. Phil gather insight into Tracy’s disorder? Tracy’s therapist, Dr. Peggy Avent, joins the show and explains her diagnosis. Could a secret from Tracy’s childhood hold the key to understanding her illness? Tracy’s mom, Sandy, weighs in and shares why she blames herself.
  • IT'S 5 DEMONS!!! IT'S NOT A DISORDER, SHE'S POSSESSED! SHE NEEDS A DELIVERANCE MINISTRY ASAP BEFORE ONE OF THE DEMONS KILLS HER!!
  • I also am very surprised that Dr. Phil would buy into this.  I am not saying that this woman does not have psychological issues, but I don't buy into the multiple personalities.  She was just not believable - and neither was her mother. 
  • Even Dr. Phil says he has never seen a case of MPD in his 36 years of practicing.  I think he still hasn't.  I work for a psychitris and I have never encountered a patient with this disorder either. .  Possibly she was abused as a child and it had some impact on her but I do not believe her story at all!
  • i also have did. first off according to the dsm, did usually starts to occor between the ages of 30 - 40. the abuse that causes it is at 9 and younger it normally takes an average of 7 yrs in therapy before the diagnosis is made. i agree this doesn't look to me as if it is true did, but you need to look up your facts in scientific journals and the dsm before stating that you know what causes did and when.
  • I have one of the foremost, cutting edge psychiatrists treating me, and my therapist (who does have a Ph.d among many others)  have worked with me for several years.  I CAN attest that the diagnosis of DID is not made without very, very extensive psychoanalysis & research into one's personal background (ie: mental, physical abuse, cult issues, etc)..  A myriad of other possible diagnoses were checked and ruled out,  I know with me, personally,  is not a cry for attention. It is a valid diagnosis, and requires real treatment and intensive  therapy.
  • Now, as far as this lady on Dr.Phil... to me, she is a fake if there ever was one.It sickens me to think this woman would degrade men and women who truly ARE dissociative by faking something like this.
  • Just a thought. I'm a certified Homeopath and a spiritual Catholic. I think it is very possible this woman's diagnosis of DID could be due to demonic possession. Sounds extreme, sounds farfetched and maybe too hokey for those who are more "clinically minded".....but just from my understanding of our spiritual, emotional and physical components (we have all 3 and they all affect eachother) this is a possibility. I'd visit a priest.

  • Really dissociated and really confused....please help
  • I'm trying to peice together who I've PM'd and talked to...but I keep switchig inbetween reading and replying. I'm confusing myself really bad. Is there a way to delete a PM so I can keep track of what I've replied to or is there a way I can make a folder or something? Anyone have any ideas?
  • Nevermind I figured out how to delete a PM. Someone in control if they want can delete this thread.

  • Conspiracy time: Isaac suffers from multiple personality disorder...
  • and every other character in the game is one of his personalities. They all have the same voice effects when they get hit, they all look the same, plus the achievement for unlocking maggy is "Maggy's Wig". Plus the main character suffering from a mental illness fits the game pretty well I think.

  • The ability for extensive manual control and image refinement is great for me. So they produce 1 camera that appeals to 2 distinct customer bases along with a variety of individuals between the extremes. Nothing wrong with that in my mind as long as they don't compromise my control.
  • Multiple personality disorder? I don't think so, just a camera that can adapt it self to many different photographers, or in other words, versatile. I can take my camera and put in a family members hands and they will still get a snapshot they will love without thinking about it or messing with controls.

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  • Well, at GP we can now tell you exclusively that, despite her medical records being sealed, Britney Spears suffers from DID – also known as Dissociative Identity Disorder; a mental disorder characterized by at least two distinct and relatively enduring identities or dissociated personality states that alternately control a person’s behavior, and is one of the most controversial psychiatric disorders with no clear consensus regarding its diagnosis or treatment.
  • The disorder has also been in the spotlight with the movie Sybil, and more recently with soap opera General Hospital adding a DID storyline to one of their characters, Kate Howard, portrayed by actress Kelly Sullivan.

  • We don't get lots of laughs.So here is a laugh for us.
  • We had T on Thursday. She's always late and we're always early. We heard a noise and went to look. It was a chipmunk in the hall! He was very cute and fat! We told the lady who came out and she said she wanted us to help catch it! It ran into our T's room so we got a trash can to catch him and we went in. We closed the door and looked for him.
  • We didn't find him! Then our T came and she was confused why we were in her office. We told her about the chipmunk and then we started the session. Almost everyone talked and then the chipmunk came out from behind the T's desk and it ran around the room! It was really cute and we tried to catch it, but we didn't. The T called us later to tell us she got the chipmunk and he went home.
  • It was fun. We love chipmunks and he made us feel happy cause he was at therapy too.

  • This is the extreme form of what is normal for all of us. We all have internal parts/subpersonalities. In a world of trauma this extreme condition is the inevitable result of chronic childhood trauma, generally beginning before the age of 6.
  • This document consists of 2 documents retrieved from Wikipedia that are linked to the top search result for dissociative identity disorder. This unique, differentiated, enhanced e-book provides great value for money: it provides 2 chapters comprising 13,688 words about every aspect of the term dissociative identity disorder , with Visual Summaries to enable you to quickly grasp the gist of each chapter.

  • Mama Baer’s newest offering, Perverted People Girl Fuckers, starts off knee-deep in a pool of its own brand of insanity, a pool that this CD-r–released by Buffalo label House of Alchemy--never quite escapes from. Mama Baer, the alter ego of Andrea Katharina Ingeborg Hjuler, an interdisciplinary German artist, does a fine job of submerging you into her universe. Listening to her recordings is like peering into a porcelain tub of blackened water that reaches out to pull you in.
  • The first untitled track also works as a soundtrack to multiple personality disorder. The recording superimposes devilish sniveling over a tragic solo singing piece that morphs into something sinister that I won’t ruin for you here.
  • The fourth track, with cosmic horrors haunting her and her audience, could be a vantage point into Mama Baer’s mental breakdown in the middle of a psych ward.
  • I could see the album working as either the soundtrack for a compilation of short films or a venture into the life of someone who’s been severely traumatized. I’m sure you can find your own ways to interpret the music. Overall, I highly recommend this one to anyone with an open mind. It begs repeat listens, and when it ended the first time I had to put it on again. I know I won’t be the only one.

  • Hello my cherished Otherbeasts! Here's wishing you a happy week.
  • I've decided to write a personal testimony about Dissociative Identity Disorder because I feel like there aren't enough personal truths out there to help others. This is something I have never discussed with anyone I'm not close to, but I figured if it can help someone, then it's much better than keeping it hidden is silence and shadows.
  • Now then, the story of how I came to have DID is a very lengthy one but it doesn't involve being abused as a child (at least not by my own parents or else it's something I can't remember). But it does involve being abused in my early twenties; emotionally, psychologically, physically, verbally, and sexually. Long story short: First I was raped by a very trusted and close male friend (no longer my friend for obvious reasons) and second, I was unknowingly involved in a cult. Only after I managed to claw my way out with only my life did I realize it had been a cult and used every cult trick in the book. There. I said it.
  • The easiest way to describe having DID is that there is a fissure in my personality. There is an alternate side of me that handles the "burdens" of life or the things that are a bit too heavy for me to handle. Essentially it's a beefed-up coping mechanism.
  • Before I knew what DID was or that I even had it, I had my own name for what would happen to me: I called it my "Kill Switch." It was like all the humanity I had in my being would disappear or cease to function and what was left was the raw, reptilian brain, and the instinctual creature with just basic core components. A thinking zombie of sorts.
  • I'm perfectly normal aside of the DID; I have an IQ of 154, my parents never divorced (they're still together 37 years later), I function quite well in society (though awkward at times), and I have a wide circle of friends.
  • I'm not dead set that on the idea that I have DID, in fact, I'd rather I didn't have it, and because of that I'm open to other possibilities such as Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Poor Emotional Self-Regulation: Emotional Suppression, or Depersonalization Disorder. However, DID seems to be what it is and I can only pray that it improves or goes away. I hope that this helps you or someone you know, provokes you to research possibilities, or even seek help... shoot even talking to someone about it may help. You're not alone.

  • It’s one of the most common plot twists in Hollywood — caught red-handed, the murderer claims to suffer from multiple personality disorder, says he has no memory of the crime, and points the finger at an alternate personality.
  • There always seemed to be a bit of skepticism about this stated disorder. I’m pretty certain this won’t be the final word but I wonder if it signals a change in defining and treating patients. Ultimately, that’s for the good.
  • We studied this phenomenon in undergrad and graduate school. The more you learn about it, the less you believe it. At least as its described in media. Having a psychotic break and multiple personalities are different things completely.
  • Multiple personalities should rightfully go down the same drain as recovered memories have.

  • Help For the Fractured Soul by Candyce Roberts takes from the perspective of a prayer ministry on how to help victims of deep trauma; specifically, those who are multiple personalities (or as Candyce prefers to call them, fractured souls).
  • “When individuals are not willing to forgive their abusers, I explain to them that they are allowing a barrier to remain in their hearts that will hinder their ability to be healed. I often suggest that we stop ministry for the day in order to allow them time to consider their choice to forgive. When unforgiveness becomes an issue for survivors, and they are stuck in a place where they refuse to forgive, I tell them to come back when they are ready to move forward.” (Pg. 101)
  • Some of these people can get degrees and do things with one or more of their personalities that on their own they couldn’t do themselves. It was interesting to note that when through Jesus the fractured mind became whole, these highly intelligent people could not do what they did to get the degree. They lost some of their gifts in the process of becoming whole.
  • Help for the Fractured Soul is a great study for those in prayer ministry.

  • ADELE, ET AL.: Jehovah's Witnesses, Hells Angels, Serial Killers, Dissociative Identity Disorder and a 14-year-old Run-Away is theauthor's response to the crippling experience she says began with the Jehovah's Witnesses in 1983 and continues to this day.
  • The victim of a sexual assault by a complete stranger at the age of 13, she writes that she was disfellowshipped the following year for having a defiant attitude and ostracized from her entire family system--though she was not a baptized member. Her young life quickly fell into wide-spread disarray and dysfunction as depression and mental illness, addiction and abusive relationships became her tragic way of life.
  • Three decades later, she is diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (a severe and persistent psychiatric disorder) while facing her second divorce and second bankruptcy. A workplace assault in 2009 sets the stage for a long, debilitating fight for compensation and rights until, finally, she receives official designation as a Person with a Disability. Since that time, she has struggled daily to regain her grasp on life and to complete her memoir, a story she will fight to tell.
  • A website in support of this book and the work of the author is now LIVE. You are invited to visit http://www.adelefors.com for an unforgettable experience.

  • Dissociative Identity Disorder: Clues to Understanding, Treatment Tips
  •  Each of us have had the experience of feeling separated from ourselves or others. Psychologists name this feeling of separation as Dissociative Identity Disorder or DID. Statistics show the rate of Dissociative Identity Disorder is about one percent of the general population.
  • DID is one of the most controversial psychiatric disorders with no clear consensus regarding its diagnosis or treatment.
  • Handwriting determines personality type and how you express yourself. These are valuable tools in recognizing and coping with a person suffering from a disorder such as DID.
  • Handwriting analysis is a science that interprets how your brain sends an order through your nervous system to the arm, hand and fingers to manipulate a writing tool. Thus, handwriting can really be referred to as brain writing.
  • The closer the writer places letters and words together, they are more introverted and dissociative.
  • Once you recognize habitual responses to distress and identify how disconnected a person is from reality, you can begin to focus on alternative ways to dealing with it. Mindfulness is an effective way of maintaining conscious awareness.

  • i don't know if any of you guys have this problem, where its like your emotions are their own person, like my mind is split up into emotions which have their own personalities it's hard for me to explain, but i just wanted to know if any one else had this?

  • Thoughts?
    I am watching Dr. Phil and her guest Becky, is suffering from MPD.  I have seen this episode before and I am STILL not convinced.   I believe that it is a true diagnosis, just not convinced it is entirely true with this case.
  • I'm a therapist and I don't believe in mpd.
  • Thanks....me either.   :)
    Nice to get another educated opinion.
  • I've never met anyone with MPD and I didn't get to see that episode.  I miss all the good episodes!!  I believe this exists, but I'm not sure exactly how common.
  • In the 13 years I have worked in mental health/disabilities I have never met a person with DID/MPD

  • Welcome to my life.
     
    It’s not easy. Actually, it’s downright terrifying. Often times I want to run away. Seriously. So this is when survival takes over. It’s the act of your multiple personality disorder coming to the surface. We all have this disorder…don’t be all high and mighty and think you don’t have it. Because if you’re a parent? You have it, Sybil. It’s just something that happens about the same time your baby takes his first breath.
  • She does all the worrying so Hazel, Suzy, and Zena can get some rest. See? Survival. It’s what we have to do. People with multiple personality disorder are not mentally screwed up. They’re just smart. They have figured out how to make it through their lives in one piece until child rearing is done.
  • That’s why old people are so relaxed and slow. It’s Because Hazel, Suzy, Polly , and Zena, have long since left the building and what is left is a lot of breezy areas in the brain that makes them feel all warm and fuzzy.

  • Rappers B.o.B and Nicki Minaj have been deemed certifiable in their latest video for ‘Out of My Mind.’ The clip finds the pair in a mental institution where Bobby is clearly the patient and Minaj is the sexy shrink.
  • In the video, B.o.B has a multiple personality disorder — he’s a monk, Hannibal Lecter and a delusional rapper all into one. We then see the Atlanta rapper in his padded room as the warden and his security manhandles him into a straitjacket to see Dr. Minaj.
  • Once B.o.B is in her office, Minaj strip teases out of her lab coat and reveals her leopard-printed outfit and high-heel boots. Before finishing her, um, evaluation, the good doctor slips B.o.B a key to help him escape from the hospital.
  • Director Benny Boom does a great job with his off-the-wall visuals and allowing B.o.B and Minaj to wild out and gnash their teeth for the camera. B.o.B’s ‘Out of Mind’ video is insanely good fun.

  • Early in 2013, the American Psychiatric Association will publish the fifth Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. TIt is the big grey book that sits on psychologists' shelves like a wise owl, ready to be consulted to determine what, if anything, is "wrong" with a particular person.
  • The role of public perception plays out in other ways as well. There is an annoying tendency for mild "epidemics" of some disorders to flare up shortly after they have been featured in a blockbuster Hollywood movie. The "popularity" of "multiple personality disorder", now called dissociative identity disorder and never called schizophrenia, in the wake of movies depicting it is something of an embarrassment to psych practitioners. This is not least because no hard facts about the disorder are available and some researchers are not sure whether it exists at all.
  • One of the most forceful accusations critics of the fifth version of the manual have levelled is that it comes dangerously close to pathologising normal behaviour, and this is what they mean. Some people are devastated by grief and many of they could be helped by psychological support or medication, or both.
  • Remember that the manual is not just describing behaviour in a neutral way. It is a manual of mental "disorders"; everything in here is implicitly "wrong" and needs to be "fixed" and, as with ADHD, research suggests that the elderly may also already be overmedicated. But there is nothing "wrong" with getting old, or being young, or being sad. In fact, everyone goes a little crazy some times, right?
  • It is a tricky thing to wrap one's head around, so let me summarise it in brutal brevity - if someone in authority says a disorder exists, it is only a matter of time before people who think they have that disorder start coming out of the woodwork to try to get help for it.
  • One example of this is the phenomenon of multiple personality disorder mentioned above. Another would be the "epidemic" of satanic ritual abuse that swept the US in the 1980s - hundreds of children and adults were diagnosed with trauma resulting from systematic abuse that, it later turned out, had actually never occurred.
  • The open letter to the task force mentions this explicitly. It points out that most psychological dis­orders cannot be exclusively tied to any biological factor. Of course we know that depression, for example, is closely linked to changes in brain chemistry, but we also know that some types of depression can be treated by simply changing the way people think about their problems. It seems obvious, and scientific, to conclude that the mental, physical and social are intertwined, but are not the same.
  • But this important separation between the individual and the society that surrounds them was initially going to be removed from the fifth manual. It was replaced later, after outside groups objected, but an ongoing preference of the biological over the psychological and social has continued to characterise the new manual. The task force initially proposed changing the very definition of mental disorder to one that rests on "psychobiological" factors, implicitly stating that biology is at the heart of all mental problems.
  • One does not need to be a mind-body dualist to acknowledge that there are many things outside the physical body that affect behaviour - social factors, personal relationships, economic issues, political pressures, education, culture, environmental problems. All have an impact on one's mental wellbeing. Can all  these factors be reduced to mere biology? Probably. Would that be in any way helpful or meaningful? No.
  • Unfortunately, that is the problem, in a nutshell. When the planet's greatest medical minds are being regularly hired and lavishly remunerated for work they have done with giant chemical corporations, it raises the grim zombie called conflict of interest.
  • The problem of conflict of interest does not only apply to the manual but to all avenues of science. But ­science already has an effective way of dealing with it - peer review.
  • The task force refused. In a letter penned in January this year, the association stated that an organisation capable of reviewing the task force's work simply did not exist.
  • On the one hand people's lives, the health of their families and their sanity itself are at stake. On the other is a pharmaceutical industry that is worth a conservatively estimated half a trillion dollars a year.
  • For both these reasons, it is vitally important that the task force be held to the highest possible scientific and ethical standards. Great work has gone into the manual and important steps have been taken to support ­ethical standards, but many questions remain unanswered and many problems seem certain to arise.

  • The Internet’s been ablaze since TMZ broke the story about Britney’s personality disorder that’s so severe, it must be controlled in a binding conservatorship permanently.
  • Though Britney’s medical records are sealed, GossipingPens.com claims Britney has DID, or Dissociative Identity Disorder
  • There is NO certainty to their claims. Nor these next ones…
  • It’s a touchy subject reporting on Britney’s personal life like this, however she’s a extremely famous public figure and has millions of people invested in her and want the best. Through it all, Britney’s remained extremely composed and we couldn’t be more proud of her accomplishments.

  • MKULTRA, Monarch Mind Control, Multiple Identity Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Trauma Based Mind Control have all entered the vernacular in the last twelve months and I've seen a lot of discussion online
  • I really don't mind too much if people get things wrong and say things that show they don't know too much. It's really desirable if people have even just a smattering of knowledge.
  • In this respect Cathy O'Brien is the hero of our story. There's more modern electronic remote mind control going on now but her experience and courage in sharing it publicly will be partly responsible for the downfall of the United States of grotesque exploitation. Watch it and take a trip down the reality hole.

  • I've been kind of unstable these past 2 days, and it is really concerning me. I started a job a week ago and I really liked it. The people Iwork for are nice, I enjoy the tasks I am assigned, and I feel valued, appreciated, and I was feeling more confident; but that confidence has lapsed this week. It has been living hell in my head.
  • Normally, I can "see" my alters in my mind and "hear" them, also in my mind, but I get these "cloudy" headaches where communication ceases. This usually happens when I am stressed or over-exerted.
  • Sparrow will get frustrated, even angry, and it has been taking a huge toll on our system. I'm not sure what to do.
  • That was a lot >< but I needed to get it off my chest, so thank you for listening.

  • More research shows how dissociative identity disorder just doesn't hold up
  • Much like UFO abduction stories that are often created to mask trauma or loss, the incidents of multiple personalities didn’t grow until it was popularized by a book and two movies in the 70s.
  • Tell that to my alters
  • Think its more a case of people trying to find logical and ‘scientific’ basis for things they just can’t open their tiny minds to.  Oh i can’t see it, hear it or smell it therefore it mustn’t exist… Following that reasoning, wind shouldn’t exist and neither should space. Some people just can’t accept things that are out of their own control or above their level of understanding so they try to knock others’ down to their level. Bullying 101 really. 

  • Operation Repo  :     Multiple Personality Disorders
  • IM FED UP OF TELLING PEOPLE THAT ITS A FUCKING REENACTMENT, BASED ON REAL EVENTS. (sorry for caps and cursing)
  • if u think its fake dont watch it, its just intertainment
  • WHO FUCKING CARES!

  • Blame it on the Commander in Chief, the buck-stopper, the head of the organization. Two heads, to be more precise. While condemning Iraq for collusion with Iran and Assad's Syrian regime, the U.S. military is seeking to strengthen Iraq's military (Alarabia).
  • Multiple Personality Disorder is loosely defined as having two or more distinct personality states  alternately taking control. Also, there is memory loss too extensive to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness (Psychology Today).
  • Get a grip, Obama.
  • Or perhaps you've already looked and the trauma of the truth has caused you to hide in denial behind a two-headed monster.

  • Conspiracy time: Isaac suffers from multiple personality disorder...
  • and every other character in the game is one of his personalities. They all have the same voice effects when they get hit, they all look the same, plus the achievement for unlocking maggy is "Maggy's Wig". Plus the main character suffering from a mental illness fits the game pretty well I think.
  • I think it's sort of being over-analytic, but it's still very plausible.
  • Even the wiki shows that all the characters except for (possibly) ??? are just Isaac wearing an accessory. It's a known fact. We even have items like Maggy's Wig and Cain's Eyepatch...

  • According to the Cassia County sheriff’s report, the unidentified 31-year-old woman—who has an apparent history of sleepwalking—left her home in Burley, Idaho, barefoot and in her pajamas early Tuesday. Her husband called the sheriff’s office at 2:25 a.m. to report his wife was missing and a sliding glass door had been left open.
  • The cause of sleepwalking can be fatigue, lack of sleep, anxiety, alcohol and sedatives, or medical conditions such as partial complex seizures and psychiatric disorders including “post-traumatic stress disorder, panic attacks, or dissociative states, such as multiple personality disorder.”
  • We hope they figure out the cause of her sleep disorder because it sounds like she’s causing herself and the whole town a whole lotta problems!

  • About this photo: “This picture to me represents the freedom, joy, beauty, and excitement there is to living life to the fullest. It’s a picture about holding nothing back, just truly enjoying every moment.“
  • **Visit Broken Light’s main gallery here. Currently accepting submissions.

  • Right now I’m feeling grounded. Not much, but beggars can’t be choosers.
  • I know I keep saying this; that I need to find a new therapist, and that I’ve been saying it for a while. As I might have mentioned before once or twice, trust is a huge thing for me.

  • Talk to me. Tell me why I am here. Why do I come here once a week? Tell me why I am there.
  • I don’t feel apart of the world you live in. You ask questions about people who live in your world. I don’t want to live in your world. Ask me to leave.

  • She would like to put me on a med for nightmares. I never knew there were such a thing to help that. I was pretty excited. I am willing to try anything at this point.

  • There have been over 2000 spam comments since I started our blog. Actually its 2300 and counting. Can you believe that? Do other people have the same problem on their blogs? Its good wp has a way to catch spammers, otherwise you’d be flooded! I am glad its there, the wp spam filter, and I am glad its free too.

  • I wasn’t going to write until after the middle of September because there is a lot going on (which you’ll hear about) but I did some journaling tonight and decided to turn it into a blog post. I miss blogging!
  • Night time. When my demons show up. Every night.
  • (Yes, apparently I’m a glutton for punishment, looking him up when I know that stirs things up.) I hate that we have no connection.
  • I know I need to let this stuff go. Somehow I have to because it seriously eats me up.

  • We are soooo tired. And tomorrows a busy day. We gotta go to our school to meet teachers, principal, and talk about the upcoming year.
  • I need a break. I need a vacation from my head.
  • it would be nice to have one of our siblings living with us though. i’d like that, we all would. i am so scared. and so sad. it hurts, why is my mom a psycho crazy bitch? why?

  • Ahh, hello? Yes! It has been a while, hasn’t it?
  • There is not really much to report from LittleFeet Land and Happyville.
  • For now, I am meant to be focusing on my dissertation plan. I’m not particularly keen on this because I’ve only just finished clearing the kitchen table of journal articles and essay plans from the previous two modules. I’m loathed to mess the table up again! Priorities, eh?!
  • Also over the bank holiday weekend, I bought a new microwave! I felt like a real grown-up.

  • Sick today

     
    August 29, 2012 by faithallen
     
      
     
    Hi, everyone.
     
    My son brought home a cold from school and took down the whole house. :0( I am pushing through what I need to get done for work and will otherwise sleep today.
     
    My sister, Lydia, let me know there are a bunch of comments posted about the drama with momster from right before I took an end-of-summer break. I do want to catch up on them — I just need to kick the cold first. Please hang with me. ~ Faith

  • Hopefully all of you know what a Rolodex is, if not google it. It will be something you can learn about. I always like to learn at least one new thing a day.

  • The final number for claims against the Christian Brothers in North America is in, surprising even some of the lawyers handling them.
  • Christian Brothers entities in North America declared bankruptcy last year. The deadline for filing suit against the order expired Aug. 1.
  • The total number of claims approved is 422.
  • The claims are for alleged sexual abuse only.

  • Okay, I have a bit of a confession to make: I am a nerd. I love learning, new things fascinate me, and I could sit down for hours, if I like the topic, and read and read and learn. I think, though, that learning new words is the most fascinating because vocabulary hasn’t always been my forte.
  • They use big words in place of small words. I love it. I absolutely love it.
  • I like to read pretty much EVERYTHING.

  • Magic Carpet 

     
     
     
     
     I can't articulate what this evokes for me when I watch it. What do you feel?

  • I’ve been walking around with this awful feeling for weeks – maybe months – and I couldn’t name it.  Couldn’t find the words or the pictures in my mind.  Nothing to conceptualize.  To give it a name is to give it wings and let it fly away.  But this one sat like a lead balloon.
  • Just a few minutes I saw it clearly.
  • I need to stay present.  I need to stay here and now.

  • "I can’t explain to someone what it is  like to look in a mirror and not recognize the face inside it. How  there are some days I wake up and it takes everything inside me to put  on a mask and walk through my life like someone else.
  • I'm writing because I have been silent for too long.  I'm writing because The Monster has come back and I am finally ready to acknowledge it.
  • I was also in a car accident right before our students started back to school. My car was totaled, and as a result of all the things I have been feeling and experiencing lately, including memories, triggers, depression, etc...I have PTSD from the accident.
  • My alters have started to go into "hiding" - for me, this means they go into their own rooms or areas and stay there when the outside world and our inside world become too overwhelming that they just need to escape.
  • All I want to do is cry and curl up in a ball and never leave my room... I hate feeling this way :(

  • Spoiler: Spoken as it is, unedited.

      
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  • the next day my 2 therapists call not far apart to speak to a few of us and T called cuz i got a hold of a cool volunteer and we hung out on the phone for a while and T wanted to know the generals of the previous night

  • Blogging is a great outlet, and it lets me feel connected to the world from which I often feel disconnected.  And, as I have always said, I hope my blog can be useful to others.
  • My Doc recommended to Sandy that I develop a time sensitive to-do list.  I’ve tried a general to-do list and it hasn’t worked; so maybe a time sensitive to-do list is what I need.  The Doc recommended to build-in activities that I enjoy doing, like reading, making jewelry, and blogging, besides the housework that needs to be done.  This way I can do a chore and then get a reward; rather than just doing chores all at once.  It’s time to give this time sensitive to-do list a try.  I will let you know how it works.
27 Aug 12

  • It has been a long couple of days. Lots of sleeping and memory recovery. I have discovered that I have a team of parts who are like paramedics for my littles.
  • We have been silent for a while. Today was a big day for us. Had not seen G in a month. G is our therapist.
  • Have been working a lot and talking inside. Keeping a balance and letting everyone have a little space when we can.
  • We talked a little bit about our internal structure. About the parts we can’t see. Can’t talk to. Why they are separate from us.
26 Aug 12

  • LaceR/Actions creator Roberto Alborghetti celebrates NAMIWalk Chicago, 2012 from Italy!  How great is that?
23 Aug 12

  • We’re starting our acting class tomorrow, and we’re nervous as hell.   Collin and I (the “core”) are going to co-front for it, or at least that’s the  plan.  Hopefully it won’t be too hard to hide the fact that we’re two  people.  Mostly I worry about Collin appearing too effeminate — he’s 15 and  very effeminately gay, and we’re trying to present as a 27-year-old ftm.

  • “For people who suffer from it, this disorder is ultimately a way to express  distress,” McNally said. “Cultures provide certain envelopes for people to  express suffering or psychological pain and DID is one such cultural trope. In  the 19th century, women would do that by getting the ‘vapors’ and swooning — you  don’t see that anymore
  • Tell that to my alters
  • hi there dumbass. i’m one of her alters. get lost. you don’t have a fucking  clue about the reality of this. i’m as fucking real as you are.

  • So. I have a trans friend who suffers from Multiple Personality Disorder (more  recently known as Disassociative Identity Disorder / DID). They tell me that the  large majority of their other DID-diagnosed friends are also trans. This makes  sense due to having multiple personalities with different genders. It's  definitely been a fun ride getting to know my friend and all of the people in  their system. Does anyone else have any experience with people who suffer from  this disorder? Trans* or not?
  • I suffer from a mild case of this, and I was in an IRC chatroom that my trans*  friend (who also suffers from it in a more extreme case than I do) pointed me in  the direction of. It was full of people who suffered from DID/MPD. 90% of them  were trans* as well. There were a couple of cis females, but mostly it was  trans* people, and the majority of them were MtF

  • This truly unique and exciting workshop promises to blend the dynamic  experiences of Olga Trujillo, a nationally renowned expert on child abuse and  trauma, and herself a survivor of Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), with the  academic and the professional wisdom of Dr. Karen Hopenwasser, MD, a leading  expert in the field of dissociative disorder and traumatology.
  • The condition remains poorly understood, and clinicians treating persons with  DID are often baffled by the complex array of co-morbid symptoms that can lead  to misdiagnosis and mistreatment.
  • This workshop will offer participants a lens upon which to view the fascinating  and visceral experiential component of the presentation - leading to increased  understanding of differential diagnosis, coping strategies, and the importance  of clinical attunement in the "listening" process. Emphasis will be given to  strategies that work as well as those that do not.

  • Adele R. Fors is a 4th-generation Jehovah's Witness and the ex-communicated  daughter/grand-daughter of two of the most revered church leaders within the  secretive Jehovah's Witness sect today.
  • ADELE, ET AL.: Jehovah's Witnesses, Hells Angels, Serial Killers,  Dissociative Identity Disorder and a 14-year-old Run-Away is the author's  response to the crippling experience she says began with the Jehovah's Witnesses  in 1983 and continues to this day.
  • Three decades later, she is diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (a  severe and persistent psychiatric disorder) while facing her second divorce and  second bankruptcy. A workplace assault in 2009 sets the stage for a long,  debilitating fight for compensation and rights until, finally, she receives  official designation as a Person with a Disability. Since that time, she has  struggled daily to regain her grasp on life and to complete her memoir, a story  she will fight to tell.

  • If only I could put into words what I’m experiencing at the moment. For the first time in the many months since I’ve been writing on this blog, the words just simply aren’t there. And on top of it, I’ve been having contradictory feelings about the blog itself…
  • The purpose of a blog is to share your thoughts/ideas/words with the world, and find connections through those words.
  • And I tried to stop. But then my internal world got spun into total chaos. Some of you may understand what I mean when I say this, I’m guessing perhaps some who have experience with dissociation and dissociated parts and emotions.

  • One of the most helpful things to me in the last month has been scheduling my days the previous night. It motivates me to get out of bed, to do my workouts and to make sure I get done the things that actually need doing (even things as simple as showers and meals)
  • I went to my primary care physician this afternoon to discuss my adventures in weight loss. Just so you don’t hold your breath, she said nothing that was surprising. So, what DID she say?
  • I’ve been texting my schedules daily to Therapist, and that helps me remain accountable for doing the things I said I was gonna do.

  • I am queen of avoidance..if I can avoid something I will ..
  • And that's where the alters come in.. They each in their own way took the pain for me.. they protected me and allowed me to survive.....
  • There is so much more work to be done.. and I know I will have to revisit this over and over again.... and I will have to see and feel each alters pain as my own...

  • I have briefly touched on earlier posts that before you can even begin working on the “meat and potatoes” of Containment, it is important for your System to work out any negative reactions you have to Containment. 
  • In the end I had a glimpse of clarity and felt more in control of my life.
  • Containment allows you, in a nutshell, to consciously postpone dealing with the overwhelming portion of your emotion/memory/image/etc.  You stay with what you can stand and then postpone the rest.
  • By containing the bigger portion of the difficult emotion/memory/image, you can better deal with the present. 

  • Before I do my great big blog read, I wanted to share some sailor girls I painted……..

  • Tomorrow I fly.  From my point of view I might as well be preparing to leave for outer space.  Not that I don’t know where I will end up, and don’t know that being with my children and grandchildren will be wonderful beyond belief.
  • Because of the limitations of my existence – both inner and outer – my home, my garden and my animals exist as a sort of oasis for me of safety, security, entertainment, what gives some meaning to my life, some structure, some sense of well-being and connectedness to the web of life which for me so seldom CAN include human contact and interaction.
  • If I did not have the gift of imagination I would probably be unable to worry.  Yes, imagination is a gift of the soul — but, oh!  To only use that gift wisely!  Am I doing that?
  • I find myself wondering briefly what it would be like to have gone through life, to go through it now with a detailed instruction book in hand that could be referred to and relied upon to contain the truth about how to manage one’s self in one’s life.
  • I can think about my mother and about my father, about the insane abuse that happened to me (with my siblings suffering as witnesses) because they also did not recognize they had a problem at all!
  • I just received the news from my dear friend about the doctor’s report yesterday.
  • Yet I can’t ignore the fact that I process related information through a series of personal filters.
  • As I do this I realize that I see two kinds of filters.  One kind allows us to filter out reality so that we can ‘ignore problems’ as if they do not exist at all – which allows us to keep on keeping on IN SPITE of what troubles us.
     
    The other kind of filter reminds me of purification filters that remove debris and contaminating toxins – like water filters.  This kind of filter for a human being must by nature involve some thinking and processing GROWTH work.
  • And I guess, as the above research mentions, what we keep and what we don’t allow to stay in our lives has to do with our brain’s ability to make decisions and choices based on what we find has value to us – or does not.

  • I am going to take the next week off of blogging to wrap up the summer.

  • Today I am fragmented. I am split. I am compartmentalized. Some of my parts are acting on their own.
  • Normally this would be cause for alarm. Not today. My internal system has delegated things to different parts. Everything is covered.
  • I think things are going well. With the processing and letting things out. At least so far.

  • i struggle before sunrise  to be ready for the day.
21 Aug 12

  • Let me offer another perspective.
  • MPD and DID are just two more labels that give a shorthand to describing but not  explaining a pattern of behaviors.
  • We were created to be fully dependent on God and we retain part of our primal  personhood when we humbly depend on the Father, (as Christ did every moment),  however, to the extent we attempt to live life apart from dependence on the  Father, we fracture our personality.
  • Only the Gospel can restore this fracture. In prayer we unite with Christ and  express our dependence on the Father.
  • The "clinical" DIDs and MPDs that we see in society are simply more severe  'fracturings' that we have brought on ourselves in response to horrible trauma,  pain and suffering. Finding ourselves in the valley of the shadow of death  without the shepherd is a terrifying experience.

  • Joining Mariah Carey and her Hello Kitties! at the American Idol  judging table will be Nicki Minaj, who  should actually count as 3 people. Because she likes to pretend she has multiple  personality disorder, you see.
  • Nicki Minaj, whose success is owed in part to the studios that created her, and  Randy Jackson, who’s only advice  ever is to stop being pitchy.

  • I drempt, thay by some bizarre standard I met the-girl-with-many-names.

  • William Bergen Greene was a troubled man who started with a troubled childhood.   He apparently suffered severe abuse as an early child until he was made a  ward of the state at age eight.
  • His prison sex offender therapist, known to the public only by the initials M.S.  (because she later became another victim of Mr. Greene's many sex offenses), was  the first to diagnose him with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) otherwise  known as multiple personalities.
  • Malingering, of course, is not a disorder that is treatable under Medicaid but  is described as "the intentional production of false or grossly exaggerated  physical or psychological symptoms, motivated by external incentives."   Typically, external incentives have to do with financial gain, or  avoidance of responsibilities or consequences.
  • She met him for therapy on a routine of bi-weekly sessions, but if so, they must  have been extremely long sessions, because by the end, when he finally assaulted  her in 1994, she had racked up over 2000 hours of therapy with this single  patient.
  • Yet more evidence of enmeshment if not outright obsession on the part of the  therapist
  • Greene plead not guilty by reason of insanity, but in his first trial, Judge  Thorpe ruled that DID could not be used in an insanity defense due to lack  scientific consensus on the existence of the disorder.
  • Packard diagnosed the chronic sex offender with antisocial (AKA psychopathic)  personality disorder and a sexual paraphilia disorder.  Packard further  stated his doubt about the veracity of DID as a legitimate disorder.   Packard firmly believed that Greene had simply been faking DID from the  beginning.  

  • This is Jack, I had a question that Id  been wondering about, if anyone can answer Id appreciate it. Is it possible for  the core to resign from his position as core and hand it to an alter? Basically  making someone else the core from then on.
  • If there's a lull or if we do anything that might involve or interest me, I  take over sort of automatically. But I've been host for decades and the others  just don't have the experience I do, the quick responses to life situations, nor  some of the other skills. And we're pretty sure the job simply necessitates that  I remain. Like it or not, we seem to be stuck with me. And I'll be honest and  say we don't like it. If we had a low-key job somewhere, several of us could  handle the life.
  • If by "core" you mean the original personality, the one that everyone split  from, then no, it is not possible. The core will always be the core, whether  they are in control or not.
  • However, it is possible for systems to change "hosts" and for someone to give up  control to a new "host". This puts someone else in control and has them dealing  with everyday life, switches, time loss, etc. But the "core" will always be the  "core", whether they're in control or not.

  • As a kid I was used to having nightmares. I had nightmares all the time. I never even knew what a ‘wish fulfillment’ dream was until I was about fourteen and read up on them – part of the psychology training that my dad was giving me.
  • In it we had come back to the ‘hood – the object of my hidden desire: to be once again where my true friends did not change, where the neighborhood and everything in it would remain the same. The same dirt road with the same people living up and down it, pretty much as I had left it . . .
  • “You mean it won’t all be the same?” I could hear my inner child asking me and so I asked.
     
    “No, of course not,” she replied, turning back to the counter messing with something.
  • In our mind’s eye we started seeing: this was a dream that could come true, this nightmare and ‘stuff’ – meaning the feelings and horrid emotions that went with loss, grief, anguish, loneliness – and this staring-you-in-the-face despair that no matter what you do you will flounder in loss.
  • And yet our inner child held onto that dream – still does; I can see it in his shining face with his memories of sunshine and running into the wind across the white sand, the cloud puffed sky blue, the sun warm on his back, and the excited calling of his friends ahead; bare feet pounding on the road . . .

  • Wed. 15th - went with Rich out to the lake and then to dinner … had uncomfortable day with younger parts … Rich then gave a Slurpee, but took the older parts some time to talk, snuggled and then Rich left at midnight for fishing
  • Thurs 16th - considered dusting, saw Dr. Marvin again, up until 2:30 am, parts had problems because of being “out with mother” during Dr. Marvin’s session - no one to protect them from her - competitive sexuality, discussed getting Julie’s quilt being quilted after Jillian's wedding, posted news cycle
  • We were really put-out of sorts last night when we had discovered the sexuality site that had been visiting our blog and pushing up the numbers. We have to deal with the curiosity of what all that is about along with the being abhorred by it.
  • Among many other things, including Joe and Cari’s home move, I was pleased that both Thom and Cari let me talk about what I was doing on the computer a little bit with the dissociative projects. And both of them read for me the two pages that I had written on myths put-out in the public. They didn't say too much afterwards, but it was really impressive that they read the first sheet, and then they held onto and read the second sheet too as if it was of something enough to hold their interest.
  • The drive to the airport was hard for me, maybe more than for the other two. I let Thom sit in the front with Rich, and I tried not to talk too much “silly girl talk,” but there was a lot of gooey-mom stuff happening in our brain. I think all mothers have a right to that no matter what their male counterparts think. I knew I was going to miss Thom, and it was going to be a hole in my heart when we had to say goodbye.
  • I don't think anybody beside Adobe does what Adobe does, so they certainly have rights to their costs – though again we’re much more up for MOOC’s, TEDs, Khan’s and other programs like that.  Nothing though will take down how grateful I feel toward Carey for helping us out at such a critical point in our life.
  • I'm sure that he and others like him at Adobe deal with professionals that are just over the top. It's really an honor to have been given this package.  I feel I’ve been given a lifelong quest – WITH the horse to now carry me forward.

  • At what point do you say to yourself, “I need help”? And how many times do you say it before you actually reach out?
  • I spiraled down to a point where no one could avoid the fact any longer.
  • This was a battle I’d endured for years, a battle I could no longer hide or run from.
  • Going into a clinic for “mental problems” is scary.
  • In order for therapy to be effective (as effective as possible), you have to be ready for the therapeutic process.
  • But it is necessary to find some form of stability, some semblance of a life worth living.

  • That is what I heard from three different lawyers when I complained about the “medication error,” The Institute of Living (IOL) had inflicted upon me.
  • Victims of “legitimate rape” can’t get pregnant because a woman’s body will shut down and prevent the pregnancy. Rep. Todd Akin (R-MO) actually said that—in other words, he’s saying that if a woman does get pregnant, she must not have been raped.
  • There is a list of difficult clients that floats around each Local mental Health Authority (LMHA) called Personas Non Gratis. It has clients considered “high utilizers”and “Axis II’s” in essence, people who are challenging or even high functioning who just don’t shut the fuck up and take what measly crumbs are offered.
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